tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9533568836039615742024-03-12T21:11:18.296-04:00Mr. Subconscious Writes...Mr.Subconscioushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00646639781792951257noreply@blogger.comBlogger35125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-953356883603961574.post-40662788785660452702011-06-01T14:14:00.005-04:002011-06-01T14:53:41.134-04:00What to Build On: Practice the Armlocks<div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;">Lets keep this simple, stick with the Americana, Kimura, and Armbar armlocks. Thing is, you know how to do them on their own but you don't know how to piece them together to form that bridge. If Jiu Jitsu is a physical language, then all you know are words. Know your grammar and know how to form them into sentences. Know how to see beyond one technique. </span></b></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></span></b></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;">You're on cross side, knees tight, body low, your arm lodged against his throat. You see his arm in front of your face and you try to go for a kimura. You must capitalize the moment he shifts his body to defend your kimura technique, and when he does, he'll most likely bring his other arm in front of him to hold onto his arm. If he does, go for that arm and attempt an armbar. If he rolls out, either stay with him in an armbar or attempt an omoplata if possible. </span></b></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"><br /></span></b></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;">If you're on your back and in control, keep going for techniques. The moment you feel your control is in jeopardy, scramble to your knees/feet or scramble to take him down. Always have a plan. </span></span></div><div><br /></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;"></span></b></span></span><a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hVITwO4-L6I">YouTube - BJJ: White to Black- A Shift In Perspective</a></div>Mr.Subconscioushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00646639781792951257noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-953356883603961574.post-12752044766594001402010-09-07T02:30:00.004-04:002010-09-07T02:34:00.571-04:00<div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#333333;">I'm going to miss you, man. Have a good one in LA. I'll be seeing you soon. </span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana; color: rgb(51, 51, 51); "><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: verdana; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#3333FF;">Tak</span></span></div><div><br /></div><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhV7YCLxcGnZfRLLr-uWnachksCsyzb5XZN7_YSzmwQgsYhr3an9yJTDuZ5bttumWs9xydlBm_hV1WkpvvI2zEUPgbDQ1wKoP1fczta89qRaMHjyGZej96GbTMlsZ1MaUx1iFUGuyVWdb5G/s1600/P1050428_2.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 192px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhV7YCLxcGnZfRLLr-uWnachksCsyzb5XZN7_YSzmwQgsYhr3an9yJTDuZ5bttumWs9xydlBm_hV1WkpvvI2zEUPgbDQ1wKoP1fczta89qRaMHjyGZej96GbTMlsZ1MaUx1iFUGuyVWdb5G/s320/P1050428_2.JPG" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5514055549450841474" /></a><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><br /></span>Mr.Subconscioushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00646639781792951257noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-953356883603961574.post-53205817627259610712010-09-01T10:59:00.002-04:002010-09-01T11:02:42.223-04:00<h6 class="uiStreamMessage" ft="{"type":"msg"}" style="font-family:verdana;"><span style="font-size:180%;"><span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 102); font-weight: normal; font-family: verdana;">NYC Quote of The Day:</span> <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">I can feel the sweat drop running down into my ass crack.</span> <span style="color: rgb(102, 102, 102);">- <span style="font-style: italic; font-weight: normal; font-family: trebuchet ms;">Man at bus stop.</span></span></span></h6><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;">high of <span style="color: rgb(255, 153, 0);"><span style="font-weight: bold;">96</span> </span>today...<br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 153, 0); font-weight: bold;">=/</span> </span>Mr.Subconscioushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00646639781792951257noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-953356883603961574.post-45305135385474415912010-08-15T16:59:00.001-04:002010-08-15T16:59:37.760-04:00<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; color: rgb(51, 51, 51); "><h3 class="UIIntentionalStory_Message" ft="{"type":"msg"}" style="color: rgb(51, 51, 51); margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; font-weight: normal; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; "><span class="UIStory_Message"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: x-large;">NYC Quote of the day: "STOP CALLING ME, C*CKSUCKER!" - 70 year-old Polski man in Greenpoint on his cell fone. Phone kept ringing afterward.</span></span></span></h3></span>Mr.Subconscioushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00646639781792951257noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-953356883603961574.post-59124830542011169022010-07-28T23:46:00.002-04:002010-07-29T00:07:33.265-04:00<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"> i hate losing... </span><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;">i just hate it... if only i could express how deep my heart sank tonight.. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;">.. i was hoping for the day to hold her in my arms, to cover her with kisses, to sing her to sleep, to smile when she shines and to listen when she dulls... i wanted to be the one to bring her hope, happiness, and love.... </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;">... i'm happy that she is with someone who has proven himself worthy... since he's alwys been there for her.. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;">.. but yet again, as history repeats itself, i come away with only a broken heart, buckets of tears, and where her heart should be within my palms, you will find lint and cobwebs ... </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;">.. i hate having to be the one on the losing end.. and to note, i lost out to a military guy again.... goddamnit. this makes me angry at myself for some reason. and to fate and to god.</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;">i'm going to try to sleep, and pretend that there's something at the end of this story that's damn well worth seeing... so long reality; here's to hoping that my subconscious will have a better movie for me to watch.. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;">=( </span></div>Mr.Subconscioushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00646639781792951257noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-953356883603961574.post-9383220973997486072010-07-24T00:13:00.002-04:002010-07-24T00:13:55.958-04:00<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">*long sigh* </span></span><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">A heart that sighs has not what it desires. </span></span></div>Mr.Subconscioushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00646639781792951257noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-953356883603961574.post-25992761065734630942010-04-23T11:40:00.001-04:002010-04-23T11:41:30.282-04:00I Miss This Part of LA...<div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">[edit] This embedding crops the video for some reason. I suggest you catch it on YouTube. </span></span></div><div><br /></div><object style="background-image:url(http://i3.ytimg.com/vi/RdhuBRrqwZE/hqdefault.jpg)" width="480" height="295"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/RdhuBRrqwZE&hl=en_US&fs=1"><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/RdhuBRrqwZE&hl=en_US&fs=1" width="480" height="295" allowscriptaccess="never" allowfullscreen="true" wmode="transparent" type="application/x-shockwave-flash"></embed></object>Mr.Subconscioushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00646639781792951257noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-953356883603961574.post-10274338765656477282010-03-25T02:32:00.003-04:002010-03-25T02:46:10.149-04:00<div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana, serif;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana, serif;"><br /></span></div><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjH4K8df-dK69lwgFLzu3gb7chhS6pKP8w3pUCUv4KaLMlmYm6-CeqFp6Uzsc_qSk_YcEVnL1nEFz5PQoZwZTc3ZckSwevW8FF_aD9J8Wqe74_lhtgr0GurMcV9yEa6yfVoAEKV76Fz-He2/s1600/P1040802.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 181px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjH4K8df-dK69lwgFLzu3gb7chhS6pKP8w3pUCUv4KaLMlmYm6-CeqFp6Uzsc_qSk_YcEVnL1nEFz5PQoZwZTc3ZckSwevW8FF_aD9J8Wqe74_lhtgr0GurMcV9yEa6yfVoAEKV76Fz-He2/s320/P1040802.JPG" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5452458302123241954" /></a><br /><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana, serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana, serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"><br /></span></span></div>Mr.Subconscioushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00646639781792951257noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-953356883603961574.post-77630116306919059262010-03-17T10:08:00.001-04:002010-03-17T10:08:36.545-04:00<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; color: rgb(51, 51, 51); "><h3 class="UIIntentionalStory_Message" ft="{"type":"msg"}" style="font-size: 13px; color: rgb(51, 51, 51); margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; font-weight: normal; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; "><span class="UIStory_Message"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;">NYC Quote of the Day (3/16/2010): "I would tear myself apart, if I were her. Like really. Animal, man, animal." - Semi-tipsy White Collar Alpha Male referring to a "Hot Bitch"</span></span></h3></span>Mr.Subconscioushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00646639781792951257noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-953356883603961574.post-82024624098541962772010-03-13T10:29:00.002-05:002010-03-13T10:32:47.684-05:00<span class="Apple-style-span" style="white-space: pre-wrap; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><b>Avec un souffleur dans chaque rentrées de chuchotement de fenêtre de cave, les gens timides auraient le dernier rire. </b></span></span></span><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana, serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small; white-space: pre-wrap;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="white-space: pre-wrap; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="white-space: normal; line-height: 17px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><i>With a prompter in every cellar window whispering comebacks, shy people would have the last laugh. </i></span></span></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana, serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small; line-height: 17px;"><i><br /></i></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana, serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small; line-height: 17px;"><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 10px; font-style: normal; line-height: normal; white-space: pre; "><object width="480" height="385"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/aip3836VtZ0&hl=en_US&fs=1&"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/aip3836VtZ0&hl=en_US&fs=1&" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="480" height="385"></embed></object></span></i></span></span></div>Mr.Subconscioushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00646639781792951257noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-953356883603961574.post-30124805437529020052010-03-06T09:12:00.001-05:002010-03-06T09:16:16.548-05:00Marchie<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;">Today is looking special... </span><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana, serif;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana, serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 10px; white-space: pre; "><object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/TUbzTdF__4o&hl=en_US&fs=1&"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/TUbzTdF__4o&hl=en_US&fs=1&" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object></span></span></div>Mr.Subconscioushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00646639781792951257noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-953356883603961574.post-38023818117429916892010-03-01T09:38:00.004-05:002010-03-01T09:41:08.958-05:00The Sandpit<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms';"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><div><br /></div>I don't think I've ever seen my own city through such a towering scope. Makes you think about the frailty and smallness of this world when we're in such a big place. Absolutely stunning. </span></span><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:medium;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" color: rgb(100, 95, 94); white-space: pre-wrap; font-family:verdana, sans-serif;font-size:10px;"><object width="400" height="225"><param name="allowfullscreen" value="true"><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"><param name="movie" value="http://vimeo.com/moogaloop.swf?clip_id=9679622&server=vimeo.com&show_title=1&show_byline=1&show_portrait=0&color=&fullscreen=1"><embed src="http://vimeo.com/moogaloop.swf?clip_id=9679622&server=vimeo.com&show_title=1&show_byline=1&show_portrait=0&color=&fullscreen=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowfullscreen="true" allowscriptaccess="always" width="400" height="225"></embed></object><p><a href="http://vimeo.com/9679622">The Sandpit</a> from <a href="http://vimeo.com/user1639813">Sam O'Hare</a> on <a href="http://vimeo.com/">Vimeo</a>.</p></span></span></span></div>Mr.Subconscioushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00646639781792951257noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-953356883603961574.post-65933360131761289212010-02-28T10:26:00.000-05:002010-02-28T10:27:01.632-05:00NYC Quote of the Day<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; color: rgb(51, 51, 51); "><h3 class="UIIntentionalStory_Message" ft="{"type":"msg"}" style="color: rgb(51, 51, 51); margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; font-weight: normal; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; "><span class="UIStory_Message"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">"Men arent life! Men arent interesting; there are other more intersting things in life!" - Seemingly bitter, SINGLE, Woman on fone</span></span></h3></span>Mr.Subconscioushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00646639781792951257noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-953356883603961574.post-21115799725425522992010-02-25T13:48:00.006-05:002010-02-25T14:09:44.541-05:002/25/2010<div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana, serif;">Hmmmm, bodyboarding season is coming soon (yeah i know, it's snowing like hell right now) Not sure what kind of board to get for myself this late spring/summer.</span><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana, serif;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana, serif;">here's a short video of Marina Taylor from Spain's Genesis Bodyboards.</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana, serif;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana, serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" white-space: pre; font-family:Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;font-size:10px;"><object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/NK7FfaMPxnw&hl=en_US&fs=1&"><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/NK7FfaMPxnw&hl=en_US&fs=1&" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object></span></span></div></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-family:'trebuchet ms', serif;">I think I'd like to have that yellow Raul Reguera Genesis crescent board... </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:'trebuchet ms', serif;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-family:'trebuchet ms', serif;">Hmmm </span></div><div><br /></div><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgQZvqq7BUpKKD5jRq0ZB4pOlZEuJKQ5NJLeVwOuaLXAOASZfO6lbNm3ThcWs4N7evC898NsU0b16p98F8R1EgZE41Wp779PJVLckton_ToLmGDbL3CmSJF65x1UrjagolRZr71q1UBJuQ3/s1600-h/genesis-raul3-09.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 294px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgQZvqq7BUpKKD5jRq0ZB4pOlZEuJKQ5NJLeVwOuaLXAOASZfO6lbNm3ThcWs4N7evC898NsU0b16p98F8R1EgZE41Wp779PJVLckton_ToLmGDbL3CmSJF65x1UrjagolRZr71q1UBJuQ3/s320/genesis-raul3-09.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5442258179038444482" /></a><br /><div style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana, serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:Georgia, serif;"><br /></span></span></div><div style=""><br /></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana, serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" white-space: pre; font-family:Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;font-size:10px;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;font-size:85%;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" white-space: pre;font-size:10px;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" white-space: pre;font-size:-webkit-xxx-large;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" white-space: pre;font-size:-webkit-xxx-large;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;font-size:85%;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" white-space: pre;font-size:10px;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana, serif;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana, serif;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana, serif;"><br /></span></div>Mr.Subconscioushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00646639781792951257noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-953356883603961574.post-77697362326881657062009-10-29T11:32:00.001-04:002009-10-29T11:32:56.130-04:00Can't wait for Halloween. Costume is almost finally together. So excited!Mr.Subconscioushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00646639781792951257noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-953356883603961574.post-6747032476727594402009-10-20T22:13:00.007-04:002009-10-20T22:32:14.991-04:00you're so it<span class="Apple-style-span" style=" color: rgb(51, 51, 51); font-family:'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif;font-size:11px;"><h3 class="UIIntentionalStory_Message" ft="{"type":"msg"}" style="color: rgb(51, 51, 51); margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; font-weight: normal; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; "><br /></h3><h3 class="UIIntentionalStory_Message" ft="{"type":"msg"}" style="color: rgb(51, 51, 51); margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; font-weight: normal; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; "><span class="UIStory_Message"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#000099;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:large;">Stocky</span></span>. <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FF0000;"><i>L e g g y</i></span>.</span></span></span></h3><h3 class="UIIntentionalStory_Message" ft="{"type":"msg"}" style="color: rgb(51, 51, 51); margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; font-weight: normal; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; "><br /></h3><h3 class="UIIntentionalStory_Message" ft="{"type":"msg"}" style="color: rgb(51, 51, 51); margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; font-weight: normal; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; "><span class="UIStory_Message"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#6600CC;">Yummy</span>. <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FF0000;">S e x y</span>. <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#000099;"><i>Funny</i></span>.</span></span></span></h3><h3 class="UIIntentionalStory_Message" ft="{"type":"msg"}" style="color: rgb(51, 51, 51); margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; font-weight: normal; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; "><br /></h3><h3 class="UIIntentionalStory_Message" ft="{"type":"msg"}" style="color: rgb(51, 51, 51); margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; font-weight: normal; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; "><span class="UIStory_Message"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#6600CC;">Smoky</span>. <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FF6600;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:large;">Tasty</span></span>.</span></span></span></h3><h3 class="UIIntentionalStory_Message" ft="{"type":"msg"}" style="color: rgb(51, 51, 51); margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; font-weight: normal; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; "><br /></h3><h3 class="UIIntentionalStory_Message" ft="{"type":"msg"}" style="color: rgb(51, 51, 51); margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; font-weight: normal; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; "><span class="UIStory_Message"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FF6600;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:large;">Goofy</span></span>. <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FF0000;"><i>C u r v y</i></span>. <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#6600CC;">Slinky</span>.</span></span></span></h3><h3 class="UIIntentionalStory_Message" ft="{"type":"msg"}" style="color: rgb(51, 51, 51); margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; font-weight: normal; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; "><br /></h3><h3 class="UIIntentionalStory_Message" ft="{"type":"msg"}" style="color: rgb(51, 51, 51); margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; font-weight: normal; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; "><span class="UIStory_Message"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FF6600;">Silky</span>. <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FF0000;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:large;">K i n k y</span></span>. <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#000099;"><i>Witty</i></span>. </span></span></span></h3><h3 class="UIIntentionalStory_Message" ft="{"type":"msg"}" style="color: rgb(51, 51, 51); margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; font-weight: normal; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; "><br /></h3><h3 class="UIIntentionalStory_Message" ft="{"type":"msg"}" style="color: rgb(51, 51, 51); margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; font-weight: normal; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; "><span class="UIStory_Message"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-large;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FF0000;">J u i c y</span>. </span></span></span></h3><h3 class="UIIntentionalStory_Message" ft="{"type":"msg"}" style="color: rgb(51, 51, 51); margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; font-weight: normal; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; "><br /></h3><h3 class="UIIntentionalStory_Message" ft="{"type":"msg"}" style="color: rgb(51, 51, 51); margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; font-weight: normal; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana, tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#6600CC;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-large;">Jazzy</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-large;">. </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FF0000;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:large;">C u r l y</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-large;">. </span></span></h3><h3 class="UIIntentionalStory_Message" ft="{"type":"msg"}" style="color: rgb(51, 51, 51); margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; font-weight: normal; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-large;"><br /></span></h3><h3 class="UIIntentionalStory_Message" ft="{"type":"msg"}" style="color: rgb(51, 51, 51); margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; font-weight: normal; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana, tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#000099;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-large;">Beefy</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-large;">. </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#6600CC;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-large;">Dusky</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-large;">. </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FF0000;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:large;">S p i c y</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-large;">.</span></span></h3><h3 class="UIIntentionalStory_Message" ft="{"type":"msg"}" style="color: rgb(51, 51, 51); margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; font-weight: normal; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; "><br /></h3><h3 class="UIIntentionalStory_Message" ft="{"type":"msg"}" style="color: rgb(51, 51, 51); margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; padding-top: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; font-weight: normal; overflow-x: hidden; overflow-y: hidden; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana, tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#6600CC;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:large;">Mushy</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-large;">. </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); "><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-large;">L o v e l </span></i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(51, 51, 51); "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FF0000;"><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-large;">y</span></i></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-large;">.</span></span></span></span></h3><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#000099;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:large;"><b><i>i</i></b></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:large;"><b><i> </i></b></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FF0000;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:large;"><b><i><3</i></b></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:large;"><b><i> </i></b></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#6600CC;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:large;"><b><i>u</i></b></span></span></div></span>Mr.Subconscioushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00646639781792951257noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-953356883603961574.post-51875460195352938912009-08-18T10:31:00.006-04:002009-08-18T10:48:01.330-04:00The Confession -- Film Set Photos<div><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-family:arial, serif;">A New Jersey shoot for my friend's film, <i><b>The Confession</b></i>.</span></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEheWgpaSA72XggkmGozQAIwZQDjXVgcluU15bQS0ui_AasQDtYeG4bv-3OCMBrXRm9_HOZokbELdVNrTCZhdj3X6NEFIk6vVIM_aE03Rn6-2LfKknpDiD-zIxFwCWdGnDNrA6OX_naxsidf/s1600-h/P1030151.JPG"><img style="display:block; 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margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 190px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiFgusTNLO0FO2y0XaXpU7i72QJnW-H4ObYjXZKdAToDfIDqpjpPHsfFACgoP8x2e3tld8Abfja8_grPyk8yALS7yFaQRMp5iwLQtnluQ7nnHyBAdehyphenhyphenKCShBFY-yzZylyQiqNb51bOq4ZQ/s320/P1020830_2.JPG" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5371312466625929602" /></a><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial, serif;"><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="text-decoration: underline;"><br /></span></div></span><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial, serif;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial, serif;"><br /></span></div></div>Mr.Subconscioushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00646639781792951257noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-953356883603961574.post-28395188080832849432009-07-11T23:27:00.011-04:002009-07-11T23:32:58.864-04:00Homeless Man<iframe allowfullscreen='allowfullscreen' webkitallowfullscreen='webkitallowfullscreen' mozallowfullscreen='mozallowfullscreen' width='320' height='266' src='https://www.blogger.com/video.g?token=AD6v5dymlVDj3IW8bj76MfPCU8cJIRX0M5_ZruqKHWRaK1Bl-jNJxXtY6Lb5gM3c5_fC-0DXgn_ocNBRFBt35-jJvg' class='b-hbp-video b-uploaded' frameborder='0'></iframe><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; ">Just sneakily shot this 5 second vid of a homeless man taking a break from his daily grind. After lugging the bags and cart, he quietly sits near the fire hydrant and rests for a moment.<br /><br />Right after i stop filming, he gets up, throws a milk carton into the garbage can on the corner, and leaves with his luggage.<br /><br />it's a bit sad in a way, but for some reason i feel that he's found some sort of solace in this moment alone. i'm sure in the back of his mind he doesn't want to be in the state that he's in now but in this moment he has taken a step back, away from the cans that remind him of who he is, and is just one with the city; probably happy to be alive and knowing full well that he'd rather struggle to live on his feet than to give up and whither away in an alley.<br /><br />i see that this man has a perspective. Even with the city continuously toppling over him, he has a perspective and the will to move on. True soul.</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:Arial, sans-serif;font-size:100%;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 12px;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:Arial, sans-serif;font-size:100%;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 12px;">T</span></span></div>Mr.Subconscioushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00646639781792951257noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-953356883603961574.post-3026749955927223182009-06-28T20:58:00.002-04:002009-06-29T09:00:21.607-04:00<div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial, fantasy;">Had some amazing yakitori at the never-disappointing Oh! Taisho! on St. Mark. Tried to convince Kohei to have a bit of the takoyaki but he wouldn't have it. No one even wanted to try the chicken hearts. I asked but all I got were worried looks and 'no thanks.' </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial, -webkit-fantasy;"><br /></span></div><div><br /></div><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh9rmlXiMna3ObVvOg7_3wiEhnTY3nQWnlTokdU9QINiHN6GcY_Ej3pZUllNDMFDAR4-ZfVxFDAIS4WOX3WAx0Wi8YrKwc8J3RPKCKmWo_5LMqZkNGuwhvJd62Tx_S2H9jDNyr2iflxm9ou/s1600-h/Photo0146.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh9rmlXiMna3ObVvOg7_3wiEhnTY3nQWnlTokdU9QINiHN6GcY_Ej3pZUllNDMFDAR4-ZfVxFDAIS4WOX3WAx0Wi8YrKwc8J3RPKCKmWo_5LMqZkNGuwhvJd62Tx_S2H9jDNyr2iflxm9ou/s320/Photo0146.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5352548185050045986" /></a><br /><div>Kohei and I can't seem to stop reading each other's minds. It's weird. What if those 'moments' happen during very dramatic moments in our lives? Like, I wouldn't want him to know my worse "Number 2" days -- get my drift? </div><div><br /></div><div>Well anyway, the waitress was cute, as always. </div><div><br /></div>Mr.Subconscioushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00646639781792951257noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-953356883603961574.post-31719477233337553602009-06-17T18:27:00.002-04:002009-06-17T18:32:24.755-04:00No Reason Why..<div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:Arial, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="white-space: pre; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;">I can't get this chick Kaela Kimura out of my head. She's a cute Japanese hapa singer who has a very </span></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:Arial, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium; white-space: pre;">sweet voice and a great sense of style and spark. </span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:Arial, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium; white-space: pre;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:Arial, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium; white-space: pre;">This song reminds me of someone, so I'm posting it just for the hell of it to get it off my chest. </span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:Arial, sans-serif;font-size:85%;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 10px; white-space: pre;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 10px; white-space: pre; "><object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/isTuJGd4ao0&hl=en&fs=1&"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/isTuJGd4ao0&hl=en&fs=1&" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:Arial, sans-serif;font-size:85%;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 10px; white-space: pre;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:Arial, sans-serif;font-size:85%;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 10px; white-space: pre;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:Arial, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="white-space: pre; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;">H</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;">e</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;">r</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;">e</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;">a</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;">r</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;">e</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;">t</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;">h</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;">e</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;">l</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;">y</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;">r</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;">i</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;">c</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;">s</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;">:</span></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:Arial, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium; white-space: pre;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:Arial, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium; white-space: pre;">"</span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; color: rgb(84, 85, 89); line-height: 16px; ">There's no reason why</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:Arial, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium; white-space: pre;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; color: rgb(84, 85, 89); font-size: 12px; line-height: 16px; ">Don't try to work it out<br />Cos you won't work it out<br />There's no reason why<br />Life kicks you when you're down,<br />it's just the way it is sometimes<br /><br />He's in the day room sits by the window<br />trying to picture how she smiled<br />He's going over the ways he loved her<br />she made everything worthwhile<br />And there's no explanation no one left to blame<br />He asks a thousand questions<br />but the answer's still the same<br /><br />He talks about her and drinks without her,<br />holding on to what has gone<br />He can't understand it,<br />the way it ended he can't go back and can't move on<br />Cos there's no explanation no one left to blame<br />He asks a thousand questions<br />but the answer's still the same<br /><br />Nobody knows you can't explain, give it away..."</span></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:Verdana, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif;font-size:100%;color:#545559;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 12px; line-height: 16px;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:Verdana, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif;font-size:100%;color:#545559;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 12px; line-height: 16px;"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:Arial, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium; white-space: pre;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; white-space: normal; color: rgb(84, 85, 89); font-size: 12px; line-height: 16px; ">T<br /><br /><br /></span></span></span></div>Mr.Subconscioushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00646639781792951257noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-953356883603961574.post-74839015646237414872009-03-20T10:21:00.002-04:002009-03-20T11:30:49.254-04:00Conscience on His Shoulders<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;">It was a cold and rainy Friday morning and I had just gotten off the bus where it had been cramped with disgruntled passengers, spitting out swear words in their whispers to unsuspecting patrons. With all the rain, snow and dark clouds over our heads, New Yorkers were feeling that very "lovely" tension in the midst of each other's presence. You could feel the steam rise from the heads of those you squeezed through before shooting back a menacing glare at you for carrying a full duffel bag.. and i was.. and for having the nerve to brush your arms against theirs as you slid through the long and humid bus. That's the worse by the way--when there's no AC. People become agitated; they become feral; anything that comes near their path, they'll acknowledge you just like any other piece of garbage left abandoned on the road and if you give them a reason, they will pick a fight.</span><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;">Doesn't help that it's also Friday and it's shit weather out. </span><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;">I sat my duffel bag down on the sidewalk, trying to put on my backpack, beside the rushing of pedestrians. Practically standing inches before the road, I was afraid of some looney cab to hit-n-run me but I quickly paid no attention to my surroundings when I reminded myself I had to call my cousin. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;">Sometimes this city makes me crazy. The people in this town has full affect on you; how you eat, how you think, how you react to things around you. It's probably one of the only cities in this country where being an asshole is practically a god-given right. Immorality, apathy and fear linger not just in the darkest of corners but also in dead sight on the streets. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;">They don't give change to the homeless, they gawk at schoolgirls' skirts, they give you a look and think to themselves whether or not it's worth it to take your innocence; this city, like almost any other, is dirty beyond dirty and to find someone who can walk through this mess with the cleanest of clean conscience is a rare find. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;">But after getting annoyed with the way a mother was talking down to her cranky toddler son, I couldn't help but think for moment, "what the fuck is this world turning into?" In my mind, in those few seconds, I rush past memories of my hatred toward the world and its inhabitants; I rushed past the thoughts of changing the world in the flick of a switch, the yearn to see no more immorality in this world and for the world to finally get the answer its been looking for. I was ready to burst out in anger, wanting to rid the streets whatever it was that was bothering me. <i>If we're not getting an answer soon, then I'll have to take matters into my own hands.<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: normal;"> But in the instant of me reaching for the mantle, I </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: normal; ">noticed a person who may have been a sign. </span></i></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;">He wore a dull green military-style jacket, buttoned and zipped to the very end; wore dark denims, a brown beret and aviator sunglasses and he emerged gracefully and with patience from the frantic souls around us. His posture was upright and at ease; his movement, without haste and his hands, behind his back holding at the wrist. He walked through the people without being touched and avoided eye contact, yet his mannerism seemed observant, surveying the world that he also has a connection to just as I. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;">But the most interesting little detail on him wasn't the jacket or the odd use of shades on a very cloudy morning or his calm expression, it was the brown leather gloves rested on his shoulders tucked neatly under the jacket's shoulder loops with the fingers pointing forward. It seemed as if some bigger-than-life entity was behind him, physically guiding the mute man through our world unseen, yet the only evidence of any such being would have been the hands rested on the man's shoulders. It was then that I thought the man was some sort of... angel. Some sort of clue to a possible answer to my soul's endeavoring questions. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><i>Where could this man have come from? What has he seen? Who do those hands on his shoulders belong to? </i></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;">I tried to avoid his presence by paying attention to a continuous ringing on my cell phone. The voicemail started but I stayed on and peeked around the bend of my frames at the man being guided by an entity. It was weird. He left not a trace, not one sound from his heavy brown boots, nor a scent of cologne. Nothing. He was merely a man guided by his conscience surveying the world just as I. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;">On the corner I looked behind me to catch a last glimpse of this mysterious fellow from the abyss and he was gone. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;">weird, huh? </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><br /></span><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><br /></span></div></div></div>Mr.Subconscioushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00646639781792951257noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-953356883603961574.post-8314575720871633452009-02-01T16:20:00.006-05:002009-02-01T19:28:01.571-05:00Francisco's Beauty Bar B-Day Bonanza!@<div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">Last night, a ton of us kiddies went out to celebrate Francisco's 23rd at the awesome Beauty Bar down on 14th and 2nd. </span><div><br /></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">It was a thrilling and exciting night filled with a great crowd, many drinks, some drama, a bday boy rippin' the dance floor and of course, great tunes. Will never forget the high octane energy that ensued during the Cure's "Friday I'm in Love." Absolutely brilliant. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><br /></span></div><div><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEixo9GNKO6L3mP6XyhmNbuD1rukHbvyffLp4CKAZmSSHseRV5Qg5vU6qHwPLIjaVkgNGNu3L8RMJbw7W60zbmtSnFBP2y1SNw0KNvyPg2DcTqFoxhu3MsIJqCXe8esg2tIJh-lfsgY3Asvx/s1600-h/P1010474.JPG"><img style="cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEixo9GNKO6L3mP6XyhmNbuD1rukHbvyffLp4CKAZmSSHseRV5Qg5vU6qHwPLIjaVkgNGNu3L8RMJbw7W60zbmtSnFBP2y1SNw0KNvyPg2DcTqFoxhu3MsIJqCXe8esg2tIJh-lfsgY3Asvx/s320/P1010474.JPG" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5297960265130417714" /></a><br /></div></div><div><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiqw9zCic_q7bmvg87cpj4tfHjdBAp9UCnPx5CLbrs-LYXcB-cmlI5ThFIiz89RLKCpPGxbNpbcao8EunlV5c6lSBCptVsD6NLB1_7Il9GVZgM49U7bf0uputsfSRH0gNVhDVQQVxk91Qv8/s1600-h/P1010490.JPG"><img style="cursor:pointer; 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people who ran around in spirited acting exercises, ad-libbing funny lines and improving stomach churning awkward moments with each other. Being a member of the technical crew, I sat without utter and simply observed. However, the hours that went by of just spectating truly left me feeling faded with exhaust. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">Which left me to how I came to be on the bus with a dash of melancholy in the air. Since it wasn't really a time for me to speak or to acknowledge the group session earlier, I couldn't help but feel like I wasn't being noticed. But it's alright. They were grooving to their work in preparation for the next day's shoot, so I didn't feel to bother. Yet still, no one had spoken to me or had looked me in the eye for most of the time and I felt alone by it. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">My mind was constantly rewinding to certain parts of my day spent with the actors, my cousin, y uncle, and then would fast forward to my cerebral 'to do' list in the hopes of reminding myself of the unfinished tasks still at hand for the night. I kept doing this all throughout the long bus ride. At times, however, my thoughts would be overwhelmed by the childish banter between a young boy and his older sister about which of their favorite popcorn flavors were the best in the world. Sometimes my eye would catch the older asian woman white man couple sitting somewhat across from me--the woman always catching my short glimpses. Not that she was a 'dish' or anything but something about her timeless face that got my attention. What do I mean with, 'timeless?' Well maybe it had to do something with her glowing spirit that would emerge through her eyes. I dunno. I would continuously look away and then back at her in the hopes of getting a good glance without her noticing. I would do this for about seven stops. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">When the bus came to a stop, I noticed a very familiar hat on the head of a girl whom I'd always see around my building. While her looks don't scream in high decibels, her beauty is of a quiet, hidden kind of gem. The dark curls would obscure her slender neck from any man's view. Her amber eyes were always hard to see because of the level of shyness in them. They would always find a spot on the floor on the bus or on the ground ahead of her as she walked. Her voice, however, is of a mystery still. Not once have I heard her utter a word--not the time she held the elevator door for me years ago, nor the time when I let her skip ahead of me in the grocery store, nor the time when I'd say hello to her and her mother when I'd see them exiting the building on my way in. And that's another thing... she's always with her mother. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">I don't necessarily feel that we may share some unspoken connection between one another because of our relation in proximity or the coincidences of when she'd always appear when my heart would sigh, but I can never shake off the attraction toward mystery. The wonder that comes to my mind just aches me in the gut, wanting to know the soul behind those honeyed irises or the warmth that courses through the touch of her gentle hand. I always wonder but can never find out. I love the mystery in this woman but I feel the urge to just break the wall down. The struggle is just the very philosophy of the ideal woman personified through my own desires, I suppose. I wouldn't want to attain the glory if the journey is what I'm after. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">I was the last off the bus, as always. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">"Thank you. Have a good night." I always so-kindly say to the driver as I make my first descent off the step. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">Even though I say this, I'm usually thoughtful enough to listen for a reply from the driver but tonight, with my eyes dead set on this girl, I cared not to listen. There might have been a low grumble of some sort from the elder man but I paid no attention. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">She was with her mother, as usual and walking just within arms reach ahead of me. She was talking to her mother but god damn it, the FDR was just way too noisy to make out the sound of her voice. I tried quickening my pace around them but I noticed my shadow thrown on the wall ahead of me by the bright headlights of a speedy taxi cab. I jumped back behind the girl and her mother from avoiding a dangerously close taxi but I quickly recomposed myself and went back to walking passed them--but they were silent. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">In the struck of Zeus's thunderbolt, as I was fast approaching the escalator, I thought to take the escalator up to the plaza deck to enter my building through the main lobby instead of through the street level. In doing so, I would perhaps catch an elevator from the lobby if the girl would happen to catch the same elevator first from the street level. I know what you're thinking--why not just go straight toward the street level entrance instead of taking the chance of being separated? The truth is, well, I wanted to test fate. I wanted to see if fate would bring us back together inside that elevator car. I wanted to feel, in this odd and sometimes lonesome world, that perhaps me and this mystery woman had more in connection than just the building we live in. I wanted to believe, for the first time in my life, that fate would be on my side and that my heart's aching would be answered in the form of just a simple and innocent presence beside me in the elevator. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">I quickly turned and sprung onto the escalator step, watching the mystery girl and her mother pass me as they walk toward the street level entrance to my building. As I hopped off the escalator and hastened toward my building, I couldn't help but remind myself of a scene from <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">A Very Long Engagement</span> where Mathilde ran after a cab, hoping to catch a last glimpse of her beloved Manech as he rode off to fight in the war, never knowing if they'd see each other again. If you recall, Mathilde ran from her house, despite a limp, and through a wild field of wheat repeating the mantra under her rapid breath, "<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">If I get to the curve before the cab, Manech will come back alive...</span>" All this while Angelo Badalamenti's moving score roars through Mathilde's physical endeavor in this game of fate. Her breath quickens and the field grows wilder, seemingly with the only purpose in life to stop Mathilde from running ahead of fate, as she steadily approached the dirt curb around the mountain side. <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">She finally passes a large rock and stops by the road, out of breath, sweating, and awaiting.... </span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">I wait by the elevators in the building lobby. The bag over my shoulder grows heavier and my cheeks burn from the blistering cold. I look around at the elevators, which were all in motion. A door opens behind me--<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">Ah! Wrong car, </span>I think to myself, knowing full well that this car doesn't go to the street level so there'd be no chance of seeing her. A delivery boy exits and looks at me for a quick moment then searches the hallway, seemingly in loss of the exit sign which shined in bright red above the corner. I hop in, half-accepting the loss and feeling that fate had won against me. But then my inhibitions disappear from the overzealous feeling of hope. I quickly hit a random button and step back into the hallway. The elevator door shuts and zooms upward. I hit the pad once again in the hopes of catching an elevator from the street level. I look to my right, <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">Yes!, </span>I exclaimed to myself. The meter read "A" followed by an arrow pointing upward, which meant it was coming from the street level and there are only two elevators in my building that are able to. But then the second elevator read the same thing. I now had to choose between two elevators if they were to stop on the lobby floor, but which ever she'd be in, I'd definitely choose to enter hers. I felt that fate had given me a rare opportunity to finally win on my side. I had felt that having this <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">choice</span> was going to promise me a slightly different edge over fate. I truly felt that I had won, then and there.</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">The first elevator ran passed the lobby. My heart's grip missed a crevice in the mountain and slipped but still hung on ever so tightly, not willing to die. I turn to look at the approaching second elevator coming from the street level. It stops on the lobby. I peer through the door's plexiglass and into the elevator to sneak a peek of the girl inside, standing where I had hoped to see her; to feel the air of mysticism that clouds the true nature of her being. I saw myself beside her, already, feeling our connection thicken and our unspoken love finally acknowledged. I crept back a bit, in case someone would come running out. The door opened. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);">... As Mathilde awaited, the sounds of the seagulls echoed from beyond the shores below the mountainside. The winds blew softly, causing the empty air to sound like the hollowness that grew inside Mathilde's heart. As her hope began to dwindle like the sun behind the cloud, an engine was heard. Mathilde turned to peer around the bend as the engine came closer. A car! A seemingly same make and model of the car Manech took to ride off to war. Mathilde's heart grew happily, not even able to see Manech--just the car itself had re-patched the torn seams that held together the pieces to her sighing heart. But just as the car came rolling passed her, another man sat in the seat of the driver's chair and no one else was present in the car with him. Different driver, different cab... no Manech. Mathilde grew silent, too still to move from the eerie sounds of loss and sadness amongst the chirping of seagulls and peaceful winds. </span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-family:arial;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-family:arial;">There I stood, before an empty elevator--one that has dirt stains around the punctured holes in the cold metallic elevator walls where a rail was once attached. The light from the ceiling flickered slightly when the door closed behind me. I pressed the button to my floor with much force behind it. <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">Another loss</span>, I think to myself. Another day for my heart to sigh even deeper. I lean on the wall where the railing once was and counted the floors that passed, like counting the days and number of times I missed the opportunities in my life and the ones that got away. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">Hey... at least I'm an optimist. There's always another day to find a bigger fish, no? </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;">Go watch <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">A Very Long Engagement</span>. I order you. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:arial;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-family:arial;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204); font-family:arial;"><br /></span></div>Mr.Subconscioushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00646639781792951257noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-953356883603961574.post-35917963423055861592009-01-14T17:51:00.005-05:002009-01-14T18:10:16.304-05:00Seeing the Golden Stone<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">Something has built up inside of me, or rather, a door has opened that has been ever present within the swirling world of beliefs and personal goals. </span></span></span><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" font-weight: bold;font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" font-weight: bold;font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">No room for doubt, for it will slow your feet and hinder your spirit. </span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" font-weight: bold;font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" font-weight: bold;font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">It'll be a rocky road at it's calmest, like a furious ocean, but come the end there will be grass and wheat to replace the lifeless dirt road beneath my feet. </span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" font-weight: bold;font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" font-weight: bold;font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">Time to turn that clock forward now from the starting hour. There must be progression. There must be a drive. </span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" font-weight: bold;font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" font-weight: bold;font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">Quick! Catch up with your present! You're dragging away like the receding shores. </span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" font-weight: bold;font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" font-weight: bold;font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">Prepare to face the snarling beast standing in the way of your golden stone.</span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" font-weight: bold;font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"> </span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" font-weight: bold;font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">No room for doubt. <br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" font-weight: bold;font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><br /></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" font-weight: bold;font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">Coming face to face with the dragon, you don't unsheathe the sword half-minded; you pull the sword out with full deliberateness. </span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" font-weight: bold;font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">You see your stone; now kneel forward and make like an arrow. </span></span></div>Mr.Subconscioushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00646639781792951257noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-953356883603961574.post-12362633526404871292009-01-12T13:08:00.007-05:002009-01-13T01:17:01.126-05:00It's a Mad, Mad, Mad, Mad World In Here<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(51, 51, 51); font-family:'Trebuchet MS';font-size:13px;"><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">I’m getting mad, frustrated. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; min-height: 14px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "></span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">Seems like nothing’s going my way. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; min-height: 14px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "></span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">But i pray that sooner or later i’ll see that sun rise again. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; min-height: 14px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "></span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">No one answers,</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; min-height: 14px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "></span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">No one checks. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; min-height: 14px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "></span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">No one asks.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; min-height: 14px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "></span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">this all makes me feel like a ghost in this world of lost minds </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; min-height: 14px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "></span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">i touch but it doesn’t feel me. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; min-height: 14px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "></span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">I talk but it doesn’t hear me. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; min-height: 14px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "></span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">I look but it doesn’t see me. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; min-height: 14px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "></span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">What’s going on? </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; min-height: 14px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "></span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">Am I not talking loud enough? </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; min-height: 14px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "></span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">Is my voice drowned out by the clouds around our heads? </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; min-height: 14px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "></span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">I’m getting mad, frustrated. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; min-height: 14px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "></span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">I feel i can’t reach out-- </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; min-height: 14px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "></span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">reach out in the way that gets me a return kiss. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; min-height: 14px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "></span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">I don’t know. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; min-height: 14px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "></span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">I guess my mask keeps turning peeps around. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; min-height: 14px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "></span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">It’s not up to me anymore. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; min-height: 14px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "></span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">My belief in life lies with fate from above AND below. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; min-height: 14px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "></span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">What frustrates me is believing that i’m not in control of my own life. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; min-height: 14px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "></span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; min-height: 14px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">So I'm torn--</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; min-height: 14px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">that it’s written somewhere,</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; min-height: 14px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "></span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">told to someone, </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">but who? I'll never know. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">Can't help but feel lost. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">I don’t know my ending but someone </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; min-height: 14px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "></span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">somewhere</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; min-height: 14px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "></span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">in someplace</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; min-height: 14px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "></span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">knows more about me than i know myself. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; min-height: 14px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; min-height: 14px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">It’s getting me mad that i can’t find that peace.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; min-height: 14px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "></span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">Taking all these years for that someone to come </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; min-height: 14px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "></span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">but in my head, i remind myself</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; min-height: 14px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "></span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">‘it ain’t up to me. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">You’ve got to let IT come to you.’ </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; min-height: 14px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "></span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">What next, then, huh? </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; min-height: 14px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "></span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">If i am responsible for my life,</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">then it is ME who is fate, </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; min-height: 14px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "></span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">not the unseen, </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">ever-knowing, </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">all powerful. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; min-height: 14px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "></span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">He’s too busy worrying about the world. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; min-height: 14px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "></span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">I’m getting mad, frustrated. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; min-height: 14px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "></span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">Life’s all about finding answers</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; min-height: 14px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "></span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">but i sit here feeling like i’ll never come around to it. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; min-height: 14px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "></span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">Clock’s ticking away, </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">yet i’m still on the second hour from the start. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; min-height: 14px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "></span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">Time to make use of it all. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; min-height: 14px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "></span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">Time to open up my eyes. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; min-height: 14px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "></span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">Time to make this change from within. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; min-height: 14px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "></span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">If i’m getting mad at anything </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">it’s because i’m mad at myself. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; min-height: 14px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "></span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">Lose the anger,</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; min-height: 14px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "></span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">make your stride, </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; min-height: 14px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);"><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "></span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p style="margin-top: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; font: normal normal normal 12px/normal Helvetica; "><span style="letter-spacing: 0px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:verdana;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style=""><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-small;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(153, 153, 255);">find the peace. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p></span>Mr.Subconscioushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00646639781792951257noreply@blogger.com0